Today was a mix and a mess
Some parts light, some parts dark.
New things to remember, old habits to break.
Light was Emma, a work out, a good talk with my Dad.
Light was finally moving forward in a sense with my counseling.
Light was getting a lot accomplished, keeping the house clean.
Light was an answer to a prayer, feeling love, finding myself for a little while again.
Finally being the true me with the one person I thought I was being true to.
Dark was being stressed about the house and the time restraints I felt I had.
Dark was crying at counseling.
Dark was realizing I hadn't realized as much about myself as I thought I had.
Dark was remembering my Mom and my Andrew's set back.
Dark was feeling trapped even though I am not.
Feeling like I was still a failure, feeling overwhelmed, feeling like what I did was not enough.
Remember:
Others feelings/ reactions/actions are NOT your responsibility
Do at least one thing a day for YOU
Take things one day at a time
Be patient and kind to YOURSELF
You are a Daughter of God of infinite worth.
This IS your JOB for NOW.
Old Habits to Throw Away:
Doing something for your emotional well being is not selfish
If something is not wrong don't feel bad for it.
It's not usually your fault
Reevaluate not internalize
Things I have learned today. Everyday might vary but that is okay. As long as I get my feelings out. As long as I finish this for "work" I accomplished something good today. Today was still over all a good day?
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